August 20th, 2004

Base: Take This Road

*smiles*

i have pepsi. pepsi = good.

in other news, i am rather bored, and grateful that school will be starting up soon. only not so much, because on thursday i have this long ass appointment thing, samd on friday and saturday. at least five hours each day. that is gonna be tiring. and im having doubts as to whether or not i can do this stupid job. what if no one ever buys anything from me? what if i really reek at it? arg, i hate when the self doubt kicks in. hate, hate, hate it...but what can i do, really? i need the money for october if nothing else...and that would be if i totally disregarded the birthdays of friends and family that are coming soon, and i cant do that. so i will go to the trainie thingamabob, and i will put myself through the torture of trying to sell knives, and then perhaps after the beach trip look for another job. yesss...
Base: Take This Road

bugga bugga

right, i think that i have completely lost it, if i ever had it to begin with. i was having a rather boring day, and was feeling kinda down, so what do i do to a) entertain myself and 2) keep myself from thinking about stupid shit? i opened my health book and started reading, and i followed that up by answering the questions at the end. what the hell? then i got a lil bit saner, and decided to watch the monk viewers choice marathon on usa, which was followed up by the season finale. sniff, i cried. it was so sad in some parts...tho monk was really funny while on the pills. sniffieness.

 

holly---bout the job thing? youre right, of course, but its so bluh, you know? when i think of the training i just kinda wanta cry...prolly cuz its so time consuming and i dont even get paid. bleh. oh well, i have decided that this will most likely only be until after the beach thing anywho, so its all good. after october ill look for something else.

 

in other news, i really really want a pool. i miss being able to swim whenever i felt like it. i love swimming, and when im a psychologist and making tons of money i will get myself an indoor one so that i can swim year round. yay.

 

buh, im thirsty.